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DO NOT REPOST THIS ANYWHERE, IT WILL BE TREATED AS THEFT

*ahem* So this is for ~Hykey's contest: Songs of 2008. She said I could use this song, even though it's from 2007. It won an Oscar for Best Song in 2008 though. And I love it. It took so much restraint to stop myself from putting more lyrics on the image.

I cloned out leg wraps on the grey horse, did lots of blending stuff, blah blah blah. The reflection of the palomino is THE best reflection I have ever done. Look at the way the image ripples! Booyeah! I'm happy with the composition and colour adjustment. I guess I got a bit emotionally invested in this one. Photoshop crashed before I'd saved the first version, so I kinda had a wee freak-out when that happened. PMS and Photoshop crashes do not mix well. Bring on the tears. But I somehow brought myself to re-do the beginning, and then I worked my magic and made it into this. Not bad, eh?

Glen Hansard - Falling Slowly Lyrics

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

The story behind the image:
A story like so many others... they were happy together for a while, but after a time began to feel that the spark had vanished, that they had fallen into routine and nothing was exciting anymore. And so they parted, more on the initiative of the grey mare. The palomino was devastated and tried to commit suicide by drowning. Then, after nearly dying out in open water, he is scared back into his senses and tries to swim for shore. However, he is weakened and cannot quite make it back. So the grey is leaping into the water to bring him to shore. Will they reunite? Will they move on? That's for you to imagine.

But if she's anything like me she'll just keep walking once he's back on solid ground.

(warning - personal ramble. you probably couldn't care less.)
I hadn't realized how much this was like what happened to me. He was clingy and low-class, demanding... and a whole slew of other unflattering adjectives I could bestow on him. I sort of felt that I wanted out, but I still felt that I needed him. So I stuck around. Then one night we had an argument and he said if I wouldn't do anything about it then it was over. All I could think was this is my way out. So I took it. I said fine and hung up. And I felt strong. I knew I ought to be heartbroken or something, but really all I wanted to do was get back to reading my book. He called right back and apologized, but didn't move an inch on the argument. It was a silly thing too, I wasn't allowed over to his place. I was 17. When I refused to take him back, I felt so powerful. I stopped answering the phone. He tried to kill himself with a razor blade and an overdose of painkillers. He must've passed out, scared the crap out of himself. He got help, blah blah blah, I don't really speak to him. I thought I could be his friend but I can't. He scares me. My thoughts about him scare me.

I almost wish he had died that day.

Then I wouldn't have to keep fending him off. He still wants me back, and I don't think that will ever change. But I have a nice sane boyfriend now (after 6 months of recovery and 3 months of crazy rebound boy-chasing). I'm happy. I couldn't care less if I never hear from him again. The past is past, even though the memories still make me cringe. In the first couple months after the breakup I was so unbelievably tempted to get back together with him. I missed the closeness we had, and I really needed someone to hold me. But I couldn't let myself do that. I remembered my strength and I stuck by my decision. I stood on my own two feet, and it was hard. I didn't have the muse to do anything creative except hammer the hell out of my piano. Davy Jones was the mournful yet angry piece that saw me through. I still play it sometimes, but it lacks the emotion it had before. I no longer have the loneliness and wrath to colour the lines.

Life goes on. And when things suck, they get better. If you can't count on anyone else, count on yourself.

I'm no expert. Hell, I'm only 19. That's older than a bunch of you deviants though. I'm not trying to say guys suck. They're great, well, some of them are. Sometimes people get back together, sometimes people can be friends after breaking up. But I couldn't, not in my situation. But this grey mare, she's on the balancing point. She has yet to decide what she's going to do. Yes, according to the lyrics she has made her choice, but the choice was to save him. What will she do when he is safely on shore? Well that depends a lot on the past. Everybody's got a story.

That's all folks. Sorry it's so long.


Comments and crits welcome.

Credits on image.
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:iconelminster-zk: used with permission (and lots of love)

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~PaisCharos Sep 23, 2008, 8:41:45 PM
I love it! The ripple in the reflection is great! Pretty horse :D

I didn't have that problem with Photoshop while I had the trial, but I'm using the trial for Corel Painter now, and it ALWAYS crashes!! Erg. I try to remember to save every few minutes, but it's not easy when you get into it...

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I :heart: Horses :D :aww:
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*adverbial-spectra Sep 24, 2008, 2:46:02 PM
Thank you! I know what you mean, it's so easy to forget to save. I think I just need more RAM, my laptop isn't designed to deal with 3000-pixels-wide images.

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I tried snorting coke once, but the ice cubes got stuck in my nose.

You've never seen a plot like this before. Original equine RPG The Secret: [link] .
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~PaisCharos Sep 24, 2008, 3:24:57 PM
Hehe :D Yeah, that may be a problem. Or just make smaller images (not likely, I know :P )

I made my most recent deviation in Corel, and it crashed at least 3 times, I think. I might've put a bit more work into it than I did, but I was so frustrated. But, my King's to you, Fernand piece was done in CS3 and is significantly larger, and CS3 never crashed.

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I :heart: Horses :D :aww:
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*adverbial-spectra Sep 16, 2008, 10:31:04 AM
Thanks! I nearly gave up when Photoshop crashed and I lost the first version.

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I tried snorting coke once, but the ice cubes got stuck in my nose.

You've never seen a plot like this before. Original equine RPG The Secret: [link] .
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=Equimazing Sep 16, 2008, 10:31:54 AM
Oh, I can't stand when stuff like that happens.

I always give up if it does XD

PS I like your avvy.
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*adverbial-spectra Sep 16, 2008, 10:55:18 AM
I was SO ANGRY when it died, and I went searching everywhere in my Temp files for a possible backup, but to no avail. I'm just too distracted to save early + often sometimes. And I paid the price.

Thank you, ~YellowFawn made my avatar. My equisona (who never appears in any of my art) is a chestnut mare.

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I tried snorting coke once, but the ice cubes got stuck in my nose.

You've never seen a plot like this before. Original equine RPG The Secret: [link] .
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=Equimazing Sep 16, 2008, 2:57:25 PM
I would be too! I do remember to save, sometimes.. when my computer gives me warnings it wants to quit on me. But other times it just does out of no war (and of course right after you've finished a really difficult part!).

Oh cool.
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Mood: Love ~jellybeanjunkie11 Sep 10, 2008, 8:25:22 PM
I LOVE that song so much!
love Glen Hansard! :)

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"How can we ever repay you?"
"There is no price for awesomness and atractiveness"

-Jack Black (Kung-Fu Panda)
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*adverbial-spectra Sep 12, 2008, 1:45:58 PM
Yeah, it's a gorgeous song, it has so much emotion. I just wanted to plaster lyrics all over the image, but that distracts the eye too much. It was running through my head for days before and afterward.

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I tried snorting coke once, but the ice cubes got stuck in my nose.

You've never seen a plot like this before. Original equine RPG The Secret: [link] .
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